Damn! It has happened again! Twice!!
What the Hell makes me such a tasty midnight snack for the horrible apparitions that we know as psychic vampires?
But first… What exactly is a psychic vampire?
Well, it is an entity that feeds on psychic energy (also known as the life-force that resides in our mortal shells). So, even while they are called vampires, they do not feed on the blood itself, but rather on the life-force of living creatures (also called Chi, or Prana). Usually they attack their prey during during sleep, but attacks can as easily occur during daytime. Attacks by entities of this kind are not particularly pleasant because they emanate some kind of force which leaves their victims virtually paralyzed with feelings of sheer terror.
A while ago I experienced an attack by a psychic vampire, so I know what it feels like…. Not very pleasant!
Past Sunday, the first night of Christmas, it happened again. A nightly attack by a silent stalker oozing with terror. I had come home at about 11:30, having spent the evening at a friend and his wife who had invited me for dinner. It was a pleasant evening which left me rather tired, yet when I came home I couldn’t sleep anymore. I spent several hours reading my new book (Babylonian Magic and Sorcery), and eventually I felt tired enough to try and get some sleep. I do not know exactly how much time had passed before I regained some form of consciousness, but when I did I felt very alarmed and knew there was something wrong.
A wave of pure terror washed over my immobile physical form. With my third eye I vaguely perceived a formless mass which crept on my paralyzed body. The feeling of terror I experienced was incredible!
I knew what was coming next, for I had encountered such a creature of terror before.
By now my mind was racing with panic, but the unnatural weight of the creature kept me firmly pinned down.
When it had positioned itself it did what it had come for…. It fed.
It is a horrible feeling, yet it does not hurt because it does not tear the skin. But it is an uncomfortable feeling nonetheless. This one fed in a rather violent manner, as if I was stung by a giant mosquito. It struck me just below the Adams-apple, in that little soft hole at the bottom of the throat. This shocked me into full consciousness and I was free to move again, but, even after having just experienced such an ordeal, I quickly regained sleep.
When I woke up in the morning I experienced an unnatural fatigue. I felt completely drained and somewhat numb (No, this was not caused by alcohol! For I do not drink!). I could not stay in bed however because I had promised that I would visit my 86 year old grandmother with whom I would have a nice dinner. I had to hurry because I had to catch a bus….
As I got up I gathered my clothes, and I noticed that it was not only fatigue I was suffering from.
My left eye was not working properly! My vision was all hazy and troubled!
What the Hell had happened?
Not wanting to cancel the dinner with my grandmother I hurried to the station, all the while feeling awful and a little stressed.
When I arrived at my grandmother’s house I still suffered from these strange conditions. Nonetheless we had a pleasant afternoon and a nice meal.
After having done some chores around the house I decided I would travel home because my condition had not improved. I told my grandmother that I was feeling very tired, and she replied that she also would prefer a little nap. So I went home…
I greatly looked forward to getting some more sleep, but when I arrived home I found, to great dismay, that I was unable to descent into the realm of slumber. Yet, my eye had regained normal function! I breathed a sigh of relief, and decided that I would visit the supermarket which was opened (on the second day of x-mas?!).
When I came home I passed out on the couch, and experienced a second attack!
Again I was attacked by a vampiric entity!
This time, however, I seemed to experience this on another level of consciousness. My physical form did not regain consciousness, but I saw this completely with my third eye. All characteristics of a psychic vampire were present. The feeling of terror, the immobility of the body, the unnatural weight which presses the victim down, and the horror of being fed upon.
This particular entity, however, seemed to have chosen another spot to feed upon, for it sucked its sustenance from my solar plexus. Also the strange force that presses the victim down was more overpowering than the feeling of terror which accompanies these creatures.
This second attack was a little to much for me, and I decided I would rather stay awake for a while. My fatigue was gone, but for several hours I felt quite paranoid for reasons I cannot explain.
I think that two of these experiences in a row had me quite rattled at the time….
These experiences leave me with one important question though…..
Where the Hell was my Watcher?
I must admit that I have been neglecting the sacrifices as of late, but I always make sure that I do not exceed the 28 day period. Usually I make sacrifices every three days, but these past few weeks I have not been doing what should be done….
Maybe it is the Watcher’s way of showing its discontent….
Tonight, I will feed Thee, great Watcher!
I will bring Thee Thy sacrifices!
Mayest Thou keep me safe from harm!